Donnerstag, 29. April 2010

Today's personal "worst case" collection

Well I think it still turned out well but in the moment when you already consider that it could have failed..it's the worst case

- You really need to go the toilet but then..you are wearing jogging trousers...and then you notice..you have a knot in your trousers..and you can't pull down the trousers because of that. Wow that's horrible
- the imagination that your tooth paste dries out. Well I have this worst case imagination every day because lately I always...and yes I mean ALWAYS forget to close the tooth paste and just notice it everytime I go to the toilet again, which is not that often.
- You can understand your own Japanese very well but somehow you can't understand others Japanese because it seems although you have the deep desire to understand it there is something in your brain saying:" No you can't understand it! And others will find your japanese strange anyway no matter what you do! As soon as you put in your roots they won't be able to understand it!"

Irgendwie klinge ich beim Schreiben wie ein Roboter..also wenn ich mit jemanden Deutsch schreibe der aber erst noch die Sprache lernt. Also quasi...ich versuche die Sätze so einfach wie möglich zu schreiben, was es letztendlich emotionslos aussehen lässt. Fällt dem Lernenden natürlich nicht auf, aber einem selbst schon...

Today's experienced Hideki info: I don't know if he's lonely or not, fact is he's not satisfied at all with himself lately.
Today's experienced Ryo info: None but I like him even so XD

*yawns* Bed time

Dienstag, 27. April 2010

If my heart turned bigger or small, I don't really know anymore..but in fact it feels like I cherish smaller things more lately...
Or wait..I don't know if it's a good but it seems like I am able to love what I already love for the last 4-6 years without turning my back. And no it's not just one specific thing...it's several stuff. Anyway..I finished 2 Animes the last few days...but it seems that deep inside there was still this child who loved to see Animes. You know I am one of those picky people who can be hardly pleased with new stuff..like bands, doramas, animes..whatever..but I think that always happens when I am satisfied with that what I love and cherish it so I don't want anything new right now or it is when i desparately search something additional to love which is born to fail.
 
Anyway smiling is good and I smiled a lot today...oh wait..tonight?
What made me smile..let's see..
- Finishing Junjou Romantica. Yes I know I am late and I am uncool for liking such stuff. Well in the end the comedy aspects were more amusing. My humour is quite simple XD
- Eito polonaise....yuuchuu
- reading that he went to Nakamura's grave. Well honestly I found it sweet..that entry...and the way he is able to switch moods is wonderful. Then I thought, he really must have liked him a lot. Visiting the grave of your former manager...well that fact is actually enough to become sad..because how can there ever be a reunion when an important part of it already died...
- that pic and some related ones..xD That's the way I want him..like this and not different..but then it's not me who decides. What I told Hideki is: "No matter where you go, I think you will find the right path." because I am sure he knows that, even if he's mentally probably childisher than Ryo but..somehow if i had the chance to say a word to Ryo, that's a sentence I couldn't say yet. But maybe someday xD

Samstag, 24. April 2010

Will always stay number 1 of my favourite game openings XD


And now I will restart playing it :DDDD

Today I had an awesome dream with Hideki again..but then it turned out to be a nightmare and it was my fault that Hideki disappeared D: