Dienstag, 15. Juni 2010
So nah und doch so fern
Hmm. Man kanns auch pure langeweile mit nen grossen schuss unwissenheit und nen spritzer wut nennen, aber diesen spritzer versuch ich zu unterdruecken solange ich nichts weiss. Und dann dieses staendige hin und her. Wenn etwas beendet ist, steht gleich was neues am naechsten tag an.das leben ist wirklich voller nervige dinge die man so tag fuer tag durchlaeuft. Und dann hat man noch nicht mal etwas auf das man sich freuen kann. Ermuedend.
ZzZ
If i could i would kill off the comment writing for this but i cant with my phone here, so... It still hurts. I knew before i did it that i would feel like this for a long time but still i couldnt resist. So here i am feeling bad everytime i see him. I am asking me how i could do such a thing. Always asking myself why i do enjoy the risk and hurt those who are the most important to me. Serious problem coz in the end it hurts me too :(
Sonntag, 13. Juni 2010
Shit!
My pc died! Once again after 2 years it died. Annoying :( the doctor said its either the processor or the the board in general who knows. I think he formated my drive @.@ i somehow heard something about xp. Keep your crappy xp for youself! I need win7! Coz xp is horrible for my wlan card driver + its annoying for japanese purpose. God, writing on this cellphone is horrible too. Well well lets see how much the shit costs etc. Apart from that i need to buy also a laptop next month
Donnerstag, 10. Juni 2010
Meme
Stolen from 1stepcl0ser
Cross out the one’s you’ve done:
Graduated High School.
Kissed someone.
Smoked cigarettes.
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a rock concert.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Failed a class.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself. (by accident of course >_>)
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced. (I think you call it divorve too if one of them dies? o_o)
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over £100 in one day.
Flown on a plane.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Cut yourself on purpose. (though it wasn't because I am emo..I just wondered what it looks like if I cut something in my skin. no scar luckily :O)
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something.
Been to jail.
Dangerously close to being in jail.
Had detention. (Just at school XD but the whole class had to because we all skipped an art lesson coz of a stupid teacher)
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Gone to a different country.
Dropped out of school. (well you can say I was dropped out but it was on purpose o_o)
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Had an online diary.
Fired a gun. (not a real one XD)
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Overdosed.
Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Dyed your hair.
Got a tattoo.
Had something pierced.
Got straight A’s.
Been on the Honor Roll. (in elementary school 3 times! XDD)
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Taken pictures with a webcam.
Started a fire.
Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away.
Had sex.
Had sex with your same sex.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Have a deep dark secret.
Gone to a rave club.
Ate a big bowl of ice cream.
Cross out the one’s you’ve done:
Got so drunk you passed out.
Rode every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Helped someone.
Gone fishing.
Gone long periods of time with out sleep.
Lied to someone.
Snorted cocaine.
Smoked weed.
Dealt drugs.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
Ran a marathon.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over £100 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Gone skiing.
Been sailing.
Been to jail.
Dangerously close to being in jail.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Gambled in a casino.
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to sea world.
Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Had surgery.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument.
Overdosed.
Had a drug or alcohol problem.
Been in a fist fight.
Suffered any form of abuse.
Had a hamster.
Petted a wild animal.
Gone surfing in California.
Did “spirit day” at school.
Got a tattoo.
Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
Started a fire
Gotten caught having a party while parents were gone away.
Had sex.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Gone to a rave club.
Yeah I am an arrogant bitch o_o
I was told to get over myself by some anon. lol It still amuses me. I love anons because they make me feel they dont have the guts to talk to me with their "real" identity :O Such cowards.
If you consider "having other preferences" as arrogant , yes please, do so. XD
I am so arrogant I didn't even do anything for the last few months for my fandom..because..there is no need ? Who needs stuff like acknowledgement. I was already thinking the last days if it wasn't better if there was an additional admin or mod at ryo_watch.
Just because I don't know if I have much time anymore starting from August. (I probably won't >_<) Hmm but zsu is there, so it might be alright? idk o.o
But seriously to consider yourself as "something better" or as person who doesn't like drooling for a certain guy anymore,,,that's a totally different thing.
With fandom it's like with a love relationship.. If you fall in love..you feel like head over feels, it feels fresh, you can't stop fangirling and talk about shit like wanting to marry this person, or how sexy he is....and whatever...but like in every love relationship..this kind of exciting lovely feeling gets lost someday. I mean..it doesn't change the love in general..but it's fading somehow. o-o?
As for this..Ryo and me seem like an old "couple" by now. XDDDD
But you know distance..and after a certain amount of time...you feel like it's a fresh love again. lol
Ah..need to go to the dentist in another town next week. My wisdoom tooth will be removed :I
Oh dude, my english becomes worser with every day..same goes for my german. I blame the japanese language :(
So tired today..finally a morning will come when I can sleep as long as I want again. I am simply not used to getting up early 3 days in a row. Well would have worked out if I went earlier to bed than 3am everytime =_=
Already missing these times of a day. I guess it will become so rare for me to be still awake at such a time. Starting work at 5.30am...etc. @.@ And since I love to sleep much and dont feel well when I just sleep about 6 hours I will probably always go to bed at 8pm XD""
Well its stil the time rhythmn...if you see it from the japanese time viewpoint o,O
Alright enough enough...I wonder if I get DETROX' ah today~~~~~ 愛してるから ah ah!! Yes Hideki give it to me :D
bed bed bed *runs*
If you consider "having other preferences" as arrogant , yes please, do so. XD
I am so arrogant I didn't even do anything for the last few months for my fandom..because..there is no need ? Who needs stuff like acknowledgement. I was already thinking the last days if it wasn't better if there was an additional admin or mod at ryo_watch.
Just because I don't know if I have much time anymore starting from August. (I probably won't >_<) Hmm but zsu is there, so it might be alright? idk o.o
But seriously to consider yourself as "something better" or as person who doesn't like drooling for a certain guy anymore,,,that's a totally different thing.
With fandom it's like with a love relationship.. If you fall in love..you feel like head over feels, it feels fresh, you can't stop fangirling and talk about shit like wanting to marry this person, or how sexy he is....and whatever...but like in every love relationship..this kind of exciting lovely feeling gets lost someday. I mean..it doesn't change the love in general..but it's fading somehow. o-o?
As for this..Ryo and me seem like an old "couple" by now. XDDDD
But you know distance..and after a certain amount of time...you feel like it's a fresh love again. lol
Ah..need to go to the dentist in another town next week. My wisdoom tooth will be removed :I
Oh dude, my english becomes worser with every day..same goes for my german. I blame the japanese language :(
So tired today..finally a morning will come when I can sleep as long as I want again. I am simply not used to getting up early 3 days in a row. Well would have worked out if I went earlier to bed than 3am everytime =_=
Already missing these times of a day. I guess it will become so rare for me to be still awake at such a time. Starting work at 5.30am...etc. @.@ And since I love to sleep much and dont feel well when I just sleep about 6 hours I will probably always go to bed at 8pm XD""
Well its stil the time rhythmn...if you see it from the japanese time viewpoint o,O
Alright enough enough...I wonder if I get DETROX' ah today~~~~~ 愛してるから ah ah!! Yes Hideki give it to me :D
bed bed bed *runs*
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