Donnerstag, 5. August 2010

Actually there is not much to talk about

because I have like none freetime right now.
I really started to cherish my less freetime. But you know like that you really start to enjoy your private life more cause it becomes more precious.  Too bad is that with one part of your brain you are always at work cause you can't stop thinking about the people you have there.
As for freetime...well I have nothing to talk about. THat less time I have I use just for chatting and washing my clothes..oh and showering.
Apart from that I do nothing..eating the rest of food I have..well like this I might survive till saturday when I have weekend off but there is like no time to buy stuff right now. XD
When I come home in the evening at almost 10pm I am going into the shower right away and then start to wash 3-4 things :/ maybe I should just leave it for later when I have a free day off but you know the more you collect the more you have to wash. And if I wasn't washing anything in a long working period without a day off (like the 9 days soon) it would get troublesome. And in just these 2 working days I was already lucky that at both days I did something wrong with my shirts. first time it somehow got dirty on the arm and the other one today..well I had to write a lot today so I ended up also writing by mistake on my shirt by accident with my biro some times..wtf >_< I am such a clumsy person..and yesterday when I wanted to wear this one shirt in the morning I put toothpaste on it..you know toothpaste is evil...even if you try to clean it right away it wont work out cause when its dry again the toothpaste is still on the shirt..what annoyance.
I am thinking of going home in my 3 days off-row in 2 weeks  but it's expensive..I can't afford 40euro just for going home in the first month cause payday is just at the end of august...and then next month will be also sad cause I have to buy books for school. and all school months are sad cause it costs 150euro per month >__< so if I think about it...next month I have hmm...about 200euro left...lol but I am at home at that time..so hotel mama will make me stay alive I hope.  I should really try to live with the minimum of food. XD But you know it's alright to live just with bread. at the end of september I should be able to feel alive. lol. oh not money talk. I hate that. But it's just for my existence and nothing else for now. You know that I am a stingy person so no one can easily convince me to buy something, not even fandom related stuff.  ANd if I think about it, I would rather buy 2 same albums of DETROX to support Hideki than to buy one single of Kanjani. That's not biased but just because I know Kanjani have enough supporters. If it's Kanjani or any Johnny I don't have the feeling that it has any meaning to them cause if I buy it or not doesn't affect their rank 1.  I know if everyone thought like that they would be crap too but is it even something special for all those johnnys to be rank 1? no.it's pressure because if they dont rank nr. 1 they failed)..I mean what's the goal of all those johnnys? do they have any goals in their career? What they do is always the same. While so many musicians dream of playing in the tokyo dome someday, it's something natural on tour for them.
I noticed somehow idols must have a quite boring life.
Anyway I would rather like to support an artist who appreciates when the music he/she made by her/himself is ranking higher. The goal is one but it's not about reaching the goal right away. And then again, I also know that my support also reaches the right person.

Well somehow I am still shocked that HE replied to GEO. But now...we are both annoyed by HIM cause he doesn't answer anymore but well he's not online so this is probably nothing to be annoyed by...eeeeh...yeah there is not much to talk about but still it turned out as a novel again X

Sonntag, 1. August 2010

lalalala

Forget to take the digicam along with me yesterday that's why I was only able to take crappy pics with my notebook webcam o.O






probably hard to imagine how the room looks like cause I neither took a pic of the table nor of the door and big wardrobe XD oh and not my bathroom...and not the kitchen either. Anyway room is nice but I don't feel well. Sick sick >_< really getting more horrible with each day so it feels like at least X.x but you know something which doesnt kill us makes us only stronger..but for some reason that quote isn't valid.
tomorrow is my first working day. yesterday I got my school cone! NO JOKE! I really got one XD
let's see how it works out. I will already make 3 crosses when the first 4 weeks are over and when I am going back home. lol
Earlier my mum phoned me...sounded all lively..not my mum but ion the bg I heard my niece...my aunt...and somehow I felt like playing skip-bo. But you can't play skip-bo alone...boo T_T still need to fill out my interest list and such things (T__T) I feel like doing a survey~
Guess I should also have a shower soon. bah I hate it you know xD
that's all for now...

Samstag, 31. Juli 2010

Goodbye my lovely home~~~ for 4 weeks XD


 
 buuuh...so much luggage..:( and its actually even more but well..XD

dyed my hair today..its red-brown now wuhuu
 

looks weird in the cam o_O actually it's a little bit darker hmm
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one of my killing eyes...I am sorry :/ my eyes can really look scary..it's because i have the same dead fish eyes like my daddy XDD really,,he also had these kind of dead "eyes" not to remember the point in his life when I turned him into a pirate by accident for weeks :( but thinking back now..I think it was in the same year he died. pirates are like hereos or legends..they die at the best part of their life. o.o (well can't refer to my dad's career here cause he worked concrete goods..creating cement all day. well unhealthy job so maybe also a reason why he died in his 30s. Aaah
why do I talk about daddy so often D: Maybe i still miss him? Anyway~ tomorrow or better today is my welcome thingy at my apprenticeship place. And then starting from monday it's working time~~ I am somehow not that excited. Good like that but the excitement will come early enough I assume. XD

Downloaded tons of stuff...well not that much just the last episodes of tegami bachi and episode 2 and 3 of joker. Since I don't want isdn speed just because I am too greedy and download too much xDDD maybe I should download something else additionally before..but hmm..no idea what. o.o *crosses fingers*

now...SCHOGETTEN TIME~~~ WHITE CHOCOLATE nomnom <3

Freitag, 30. Juli 2010

Mööp

For some reason I am far away from being ready for moving in my "flat" (well you can call it flat just with the fact that I share the kitchen but yeah XD)
I am bad at organizing such things...so in the end I didn't put together all things yet I want to take along...I guess a normal human being would be at least that organized to write down everything he/she wants to take along one a piece of paper but not even this I did...lol
But I guess in the end I will manage it..it's like the cosplay life...like most of the cosplayers just feel well when they finish their cosplay on last minute I feel good to put everythign together in the last minute..and then..I still don't feel like being able to pack everything together D:
It's like...a feeling that you still need it anyway so you can't put it anywhere. The truth is different..lol

But aah..you know today I had my theory "exam" for my driver license and I pwnd it with 0 mistakes buahahaha~ really happy XD no additional 42euro~ that's good. Wanted to write a sms to my big brother  because my mum thought he would be happy if I told him about it. But in the end I didn't do it yet.  And aah..didn't dyed my hair yet either. So I will do it today...as I guess I will do everything today...cleaning my room included...aah I think I will really miss this place...XD

aaah time to start cleaning...

edit: since I wrote this entry without publishing it already 4 hours ago..I managed a little bit more of my packing :O