Samstag, 30. Juni 2012

[栄喜] 栄喜デモ

明日が見えずに 膝を抱えてるなら
明日はいらないよ 今を抱きしめる
花が咲く頃は 降り注ぐこの雨も
愛しく思うよ どんなに辛くても

悲しみに濡れて 立ち上がれずに止まり
前を向けずに迷い 塞ぎ込んだ日々に
悲しみを抜けて 辿り着くその笑みは
後悔も苦しみも 一瞬で解く

それぞれの愛で それぞれに受け止めて
優しくなれれば 人にはぐれずに
生きて行けるのか 死ぬまで生きれるのか
誰も知らないよ だからこの胸を

大切な人が突然にいなくなり
大切な思い出は突然に痛くなり
悲しみを抜けて 辿り着きたい どうか
諦め切れぬ日々に 終わりは無い

涙は涸れずに 今も流れ出るなら
僕らは生きてる 前に歩いてる
生きている事が 生きていられる事が
幸せなんだと そう言える様に

~~~~~~~~~~

[栄喜] 友よ

友よ

今もこの胸の中 赤く燃えてる太陽は Woo
君が残してくれた 大切な宝物さ
今もこれから先も この胸の中に生るのさ Woo
この唄を届けよう 心から君の空

君はどんな時だって 人は夢を叶えられる事 身をもって照らす様に
君がこの僕にくれたものは 
唄を唄い続けて行く思いを これ以上ない程に

だけど本当に 泣けど本当に  君と出会えて この心は

友よ 溢れてるのは 悲しさでは無く 愛しさ Woo
君に会えて良かった 大切な宝物さ
今もこみ上げるのは 涙という名の愛しさ Woo
この唄は終わらない 大切な人へ届け

だけど本当に 泣けど本当に  君と出会えて この心は

人を慰める程 僕に力はないけれど Woo
苦しみも悲しみも大切な 宝物さ
いつかまた会える時 目を逸らさずに会える様に Woo
生きる事が僕らの大切な人へ 空へ 届け

 ~~~~~

Hideki lyrics

未来盤~EX.SIAM SHADE HIDEKI'S SOLO BEST 













DISC 1
1. DIGITAL MASTER
2. The secret
3. 声に...
4. Shiny Day
5. マーマレード
6. Cosmic Tourists
7. 太陽に手を伸ばして
8. Wonder Wish
9. Rain Knell
10. 生きてるまま
11. Flight Advisor
12. 時が終わるまでただ
13. forever
14. 東京装置
15. OUTSIDER
16. 矛盾のPANORAMA
17. DNA
18. 戦争反対
19. MARIA
20. 声に・・・ (Masahide Sakuma Ver.)

DISK 2
1. glorious
2. OK
3. OLIVIA
4. LOVER
5. IRRITATION
6. ハク
7. この時世
8. Leave Me
9. We can be
10. In the air
11. You’re everything to me
12. Destroyer
13. Oh happy day
14. 3414 double 67
15. 何度でも言うよ
16. go ahead.
17. まだ
18. so bad boys

M.A.Y feat. 栄喜 「SHINE」
 
1. 愛しすぎて
2. GO HARD
3. Break new Ground
4. 目を閉じれば
5. 我が道標








栄喜 e.p (2012.11.30)
                             
1. START
2. LOVE PASSION
3. ベロベロバー
4. 明日が見えずに









栄喜 I ~encouraged~ (2013.01.28) 


01. あのゴール成し遂げる所まで
02. START
03. NEVER DIE
04. 抱き締めたい
05. 愛を言葉で
06. 降り出した雨
07. ベロベロバー
08. STOP
09.一輪の花束
10. 時の流れ



RANDOM

1. 友よ

[M.A.Y feat. 栄喜] 我が道標 (SHINE #5)

 我が道標 
このまま Don't stop believin'
燃え尽きるまで 歌おう
今は亡き魂を背負って
Livin'  just to find emotion
信じなければ 辿り着く事なんて
そこらでも出来ない
だから迷わない 我が道標

何もかも上手くいかないけど
昔より今が好きと言えるよ
何も分かっちゃいなかったと
理解はしたけど だからどうなの?

恐れず 媚びず 生きてりゃ 嫌でも誰でも強くなる
甘えず 頼らず 生きてりゃ 不器用も器用になれる

このまま Don't stop believin'
燃え尽きるまで 歌うよ
その声が俺を止まらせない
Livin' just to find emotion 
愛さなければ 愛される事なんて
誰だって出来ない
だから迷わずに 愛し続ける

いつもこの胸に まる想いを 抱きしめて

清く 正しく 美しく そんな事など思わない
強く 優しく 逞しく 誇らしく そうありたい

このまま Don't stop believin' 
信じ続ける強さとは 疑い続けて掴むもので
Livin' just to find emotion
信じなければ 辿り着く事なんて
そこらでも出来ない
だから信じれる 我が道標

[M.A.Y feat. 栄喜] 目を閉じれば (SHINE #4)

目を閉じれば
目を閉じれば いつでも君の姿を見つけられる
出会った頃や 喧嘩した時の事や 励ましてくれた
時は全て 遠く過ぎ去っていく

全てが 二度と戻らないのは
分かってるけど だけどせめて
さよならくらい 言わせてくれよ
寂しすぎるよ

目を開けば 現実が悲しく ただ...
何してた 気付けなかった 俺を責め付ける

走り出した時に 置いていかれぬ様に走るけれど
欠けたビートが壊れた歯車の様にふらつかせてる
諦めなんて とてもつけられない

当たり前だと思い込んでた
いつでも 君に 会える気がしてたのは
俺の過ちだった 取り戻せない

流れる時と 心の隙間を埋める
思い出が 君の希望が 俺を動かせる

どんな時も唄い続けて行くから 聞いていてくれな
聞こえる様に 天国まで届く様に 出来る限り
大きな声で 唄う様にするから

もうすぐ君が好きだった Dear唄うよ
なんでこんな肝心な時に 君はいないのかな

出会う事は 別れが必ずいつか訪れる事
忘れていたよ これからはどんな時も 後悔しない様に
精一杯の愛で 向き合って行くよ

[M.A.Y feat. 栄喜] Break new ground (SHINE #3)

Break new ground

break my chains
time for change
break me down
break new ground

新しい出会いが 運んできた
スッと心に 残る様なメロディと
懐かしい記憶が 胸を掴んだ
ギュッと心に しがみついて離れない

繰り返すだけの毎日
変わらなきゃ 何も変えれない
時は過ぎて行く
やらずに避けてきたけど
やらずには 前に進めない
知らなきゃ 分からされる

尖らすために 削ぎ落とした
曖昧の無い 突き刺した方赤

新しい出会いに 胸が弾んだ
Good心に 染み渡る様なメロディと
懐かしい記憶が 胸を掴んだ
そっと心で 言葉を探し始めてる

人を避ける様に生きてきて
人に向けて歌い続けて 
矛盾を感じて
それでも人を愛して
生きるもの全て 人として
同じ様に愛したい

がらんどうの町を 見下ろした
生きてる限り 僕らは立ち上がる

新しい世界が 大空へと
きっと心を 繋いで行く祈りを
忘れたくないから 大空へと
もっと翼を広げて 君に会いに行く

いくつもの笑顔に 触れられた気がした
手を伸ばした明日に 触れている気がした

新しい出会いは 時を変えて
きっと心に 新しい風を運んで
新しい世界を 映し出すんだ
きっとその目に 輝く時を焼き付け
手を伸ばした明日が 君を変えて
きっと心に 芽生え始める強さが
少しずつ明日を 輝かせて
きっとその目に 描く世界を映し出す

[M.A.Y feat. 栄喜] 愛しすぎて (SHINE #1)



愛しすぎて
 
愛しすぎて
壊してしまいたくなる この想い
見つめすぎて
目を閉じても焼き付いて剥がせない

戻れない時 振り返らぬ眼差しで
それで良い

何度も何度も  砕け散る事が
砕けない明日を 作り出す事
求める未来を 掴み取る事が
求めてるお前の宿命

眩しすぎて
その笑顔が抱きしめて 離せない

どれだけ愛せば
この想いは空高く 舞い上がる

激しく揺さぶる 叶わぬ想いは
ため息で 呼吸さえ苦しい
届かぬ想いを 繋ぎ止めるのは
届けたいお前の宿命

涙も別れも 全てがお前を
美しく輝かせて行くだろう
どんなにどんなに 離れて
空が 俺達を繋いでるから

互にの空へ
己が求める 信じた世界へ

[M.A.Y feat. 栄喜] Go hard (SHINE #2)

Go hard

言いっ放しさ 他の誰じゃそんなもんだ
真に受け過ぎても 後で間抜けになるなよ
信じる者が 報われるというのなら 
死んじまうのが こんなにはいないだろ

吐き出され 飲み込む言葉に 身の振りを返され
行き着いた絶望に 飲まされた言葉は帰せない

誰かがどこかで...待っててくれるの?

どんなに暗闇に埋もれても どんなに待ち続けても
孤独を抱きしめてる限りは 孤独なまま

"素晴らしさ” そんな言葉は忘れたんだ
飲み込まれてる その暗闇のどこかで
「こんな筈じゃ」と 認めたくない思いを
見失うなよ それが最後の砦さ

渦を巻く悪夢に ぐるぐると魘され続けている
息をする切望に 少しずつ命を吹き込ませて行くのさ

そのドアを開いて 孤独を壊すよ

思いを言葉にして伝えれば どんなに苦しい時も
痛みを分け合うその瞬間に 光が射す

明日は何色 無限のキャンバス

どんなに暗闇に埋もれても 必ず日は昇るから
お前はお前だけの明日を 信じて行け

Samstag, 23. Juni 2012

I am sorry but...

I would continue translating Hideki's ameblo if I had the time to do so everyday and also the competence...but I don't have the time to do that everyday...It's like you know....some entries are so mysterious to me...at least some sentences of his blogs recently are that... I never find out what they mean so I can't translate them. I can't translate something what I don't understand...I could translate what I think they mean but it doesn't mean it's what he really wanted to say because translating also always means to put some subjective thoughts of it into that.
I don't want and can't spend some hours of a day to translate several entries..it's just too..I don't know..I always forced myself to translate because I know that there are some people who read it...and I am sorry for those that I can't continue like this forever.
It worked out the last 1 1/2 years kind of because he never wrote everyday..there were months when he only wrote 4 times in the whole month. But he promised to himself to write his ameblo almost everyday so it's impossible for me to translate all of this...
Also like this I don't have time to use my blog anymore for my own stuff. Honestly my own blog rather looks like a blog full of Hideki translations...
but you know what I indeed can do is...writing about what he wrote..like a short summary so you know what he is up to lately. Of course it's not really the same but it might be better than nothing at all.

For example today he wrote that he already finished the lyrics for the 3rd song and doesn't feel in the mood to write a lot a long entry because his mind is all busy with

Something personal...I was playing Spirit Tales...it's cute but that's all about it. It's fucking boring to run around and do the same shit over and over again. Nothing fun at all..no  But I want to play something enjoyable..I need something to relax XD

Dienstag, 19. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-19 / 23:33:19

2012-06-19 / 23:33:19
Title: The sound of the wind is annoying.

It's difficult to listen to sounds because the wind is noisy!!
Is it called eddies of wind around high buildings?
Don't say go-go-, for god's sake!!
Huh? aah it's GOGO!!
Ah! Thank you!
Tha-nk-you!

Seems Like I have finally become able to change my mind into conentration mode.
That's why I am going to do it seriously now.
Well then.

Bye


~~~~~~~~

Sometimes I have the feeling hideki has some mental problems.......sorry to say so..lol

original entry

Montag, 18. Juni 2012

So late so late...

but that happens when you get up too late on sunday...
getting up at 1pm although you know its bad...
because on monday you have to get up 8 hours earlier...
well it's kinda weird..this feeling..
I mean I went to bed at 3am and got at 1pm
But...when I have school I need to get up at 5am and at least have school until 1pm or 3pm..
but it feels like that the time inbetween is not passing by at all...instead when you sleep it feels like it was just some minutes ago that you went to bed.
In fact 8 hours can be long...but it always just happens with things you actually don't enjoy because you are forced to do them. Well freetime doesn't pass by as quick as it does when you sleep..but still quick enough...

Actually I totally wanted to write about something different but..it's a matter which is already often enough on my mind  and no matter how often I confront myself with that matter, I am not reaching any solution. An inner conflict. How to deal with inner conflicts?
How to describe it..hmm...actually you can't do something anylonger but still you do, although you know it's wrong. On the other hand, quit doing it is also a lot of pain for you.....doing it brings you joy sometimes but at the same time it brings sadness sometimes..but quitting it only feels like pain...
but quitting it might feel better someday....
It's like quitting with drugs. Doing drugs might be enjoyable to you..but you also know it's bad for your body, expensive and you regret doing it sometimes because no matter what you do, although it's kind of stimulating...it won't change anything in your life because you know you could also live without it...
and you would be probably able to enjoy your life even more without it...being independent...
On the other hand it's tough in the very first place to quit. You try to do it several times, but you always backslide....it's frustrating.
if you knew that without that drug you would definitely feel better and would get something like a little reward...you probably would do it....but who will tell you that? The chance that you will even fall in a more deeper depression and frustration is just too painful....and in that moment you will goo back to take your lovely drug...although you know it will break you.
That drug doesn't need you. It's you needing that drug and that drug knows that.

Well...drugs are poison. You are poison...poison for my body and soul.
It makes me feeling schizophrenic....changing moods and feelings just so quickly that it is shocking for myself. Well  it's probably many factors which influence my mood swings. Stress. Lack of Time. other people's strokes of fate. being in the center of death often. But deaths don't influence me at all I think.
I don't have a hard time to deal with them although I often see dead people...
It's all so tiresome. Too less good things happen in life lately.
All I can do is having pessimistic thoughts. But maybe it's just that what I think is important, is not important to other people, and what's not important for me is important to other people.
But I wonder if any person who would be in my shoes for one day could feel optimistic and happy?
Well who knows. Now after I was able to write some things down, I think I can go to bed peacefully....for 3 hours at least

Sonntag, 17. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-17 / 21:41:17

2012-06-17 21:41:17
Title: Today is father day!

After I read everyone's comments, I remembered that today is father day.
Later I will try to call my old man.
Yesterday, I was able to finish to the lyrics up to a good part.
And then after I got up, I tried to look at it objectively and was able to correct 5 passages.
Now I think it's OK!
Because of that, I will try to sing it now,
and I also will try out the chorus work because an idea came to my mind.
I will add the synthesizer to the climax phrase and then I am going to put it together. And then the song will be finished for now.
After that, I am going for the 2nd song!
I wonder how far I will come today?
I will give it a try.

Bye!

original entry

Samstag, 16. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-16 / 21:28:34

2012-06-16 21:28:34
Title: Finally I wrote a new song.

No..I will put the Bear talk a little bit to the side.
Today it's about japanese lyrics.
Although I put all my energy in it, write and write and write
I can't be satisfied with it. And then I already start to think about myself...thinking "Am I alright?"
But now, I finally finished one composition again.
Honestly, I will put it aside nowand then I will keep rereading and correcting it
until I will reach my limit...
Writing songs, means to face myself,
which is also quite painful sometimes.
My own mental state, wishes, sadness, fear, joy - I can leave behind everything of that in a song.
And when I listen to it even though some time has past,
it feels like I can "feedback" Myself, the way I was at that time.
Music is a miracle....
I almost forgot everything what I have learned at school
but I still remember the songs I learned back then, without even forgetting one line.
Well it's like....lyrics are monochrome but joined together with music,
they turn into 3D full colour...
That's why, it feel's like watching a movie when you listen to a song.
Sometimes, It feels like the guitar says that it is sad, more sad than words do...
so at times like these, I can't write something sad.
DAITA's and K-A-Zkun's Guitars talk often (laughs)
It's almost like they become Sada Masashi-san's "kita no kuni kara"
I will try to sing now because it feels like I will be able to sing stoutly right now.
Bye

original entry

Freitag, 15. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-15 / 17:48:54

2012-06-15 / 17:48:54
Title: how is it?

That bear was delicious because it's not stale, right?
Normal dougnuts are hard to eat because they are stale.
Also, normally I don't eat sweet stuff because I hate getting fat.
But, when I write lyrics, I eat them in order to activate my brain.
Aah~ that's painful.... I just come up with plain things and so I wanted to hear something good from everyone,
but all you do is saying BEAR-CHAN BEAR-CHAN to Ima-chan.
Just at such a time,  I get 70 comments....?
But there was only one person who understood me.
Putting that aside, Someday they will have HANNYAs?
I wonder if they had them here, those HANNYAs.

Calling that KUMA Kuma-chan is alright I think, I will bear with that, I will give the permission.
But there was one person who said KUMA-TAN!!
You know, saying such stuff as "I ate Kuma-tan" ~~~~~~~
that makes me remember a story it is connected with.
That's why for me this a matter of life and death.
Even if Hideki eats KUMA, I won't eat KUMA-tan.
From now on, I will forbid you to write "~tan" in your messages.
But saying "Gyuutan" (Beef tongue) is OK!!
Ah~ scary.

Probably sentences like "Is that so?" will increase in the messages, 
and then if I also started recommending Beef tongue to you, then people would start to think that I am scary in a totally different way.

Although I attempted to sing the song I finished to write,
I started to panic because of Kuma-tan
Well then, everyone, that's all for now...
Now,  I, HIDEKI, 

will sing chu ❤
Bye!

original entry

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-15 / 01:38:28

2012-06-15 / 01:38:28
Title: It's different! There's a misunderstanding!!

That bear has only sometimes a bear face.
Because it was seriously delicious I think I was tricked and went to try to eat it only once!!
I like it no matter if it is a bear or a Hannya but
it doesn't mean that I LOVE❤ bears.
Taste comes before the bear. [1]
You get it? Don't misinterpret this strangely .
Furthermore, real bears are extremely scary.
I don't think that you can add a "-chan" like that to them and call them Bear-chan.
At any rate, tomorrow you all should go to mister donut and eat bears!!
Then you will understand that my choice wasn't wrong.

Bye!

original entry

[1] People think that Hideki meant something like "Personality comes before look" between the lines.
since the inside of the dougnut is tasty and the outside is just the BEAR-Face.
So as long as it is tasty it doesn't matter if it's a bear or a hannya...lol

Donnerstag, 14. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-14 / 20:39:55

2012-06-14 / 20:39:55
Title: Hello

Today was pretty chaotic because I did several stuff.
And now I am writing lyrics at ease after the work outside has finished.
By the way, just earlier I felt like eating something sweet,
so I went to Mister Donut. And then at the time when I got a bear-face-Doughnut on my
meal tray there were 2 girls standing close to me and they started to laugh at me with a "PUPU~"
Is it so wrong that I am eating a BEAR~~~~!

Bye!

[IMAGE]

p.s.
Don't make me say it again!!

I am kyawaii


original entry
~~~~~
Yeah Hideki you are kyawaii.
It might be a kind of modern stylish word to express that something is so cute that you have to kya~ XD

Mittwoch, 13. Juni 2012

Darüber schreiben oder nicht..

hmm ich entscheide mich mal einfach gekonnt dafür bevor ich mir ne Mütze Schlaf hole.
Nachdem ich mich den ganzen späten Nachmittag und Abend mit 8 Seiten ausm Buch abpinseln über Stomapflege abgemüht habe..bin ich auch heute zu vielerlei Erkenntnissen gekommen.
Vllt hat der Besuch im Hospiz auch ein wenig dazu beigetragen.
Die Fragestellung..was ist einem wichtig ist im Leben..was verliert an Bedeutung....so sehr beantworten kann ich sie momentan auch nicht. Aber es kam mir ein klarer Gedanke, dass es DAS unter diesen Voraussetzungen definitiv nicht sein kann.
Kostbare Stunden...später werde ich diese kostbare Zeit bestimmt bereuen...wurde ich mir bewusst...kostbare Zeit, die ich damit verschwendet habe, etwas zu tun, was für mich selbst eigentlich nur eine ehrenamtliche Aufgabe ist aber zu viel meiner kostbaren Freizeit isst...
Zudem diese Aufgabe mich nicht glücklicher macht..nein im Gegenteil sie stellt mich unter (Zeit-)druck und lässt mich nur noch mehr über Nonsense nachdenken. Nun..mein Entschluss wurde gefasst..aus verschiedenen Gründen hab ich deshalb auch noch zusätzlich meinen Ameba account gelöscht..komischerweise ist der Blog noch da..ich hoffe der verschwindet auch noch?
Nun wie dem auch sei..nebenbei hab ich heute auf twitter bei epic tweets einen wirklich epic tweet gelesen und genau der hat mich in meinen Gedankenzügen noch bestätigt.

Don't lose yourself in attempt to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.
Wie wahr wie wahr...und wie viele Male haben Counti und ich das schon miterlebt. Natürlich nie zusammen..aber geteiltes Leid ist halbes Leid...stimmt da trotzdem auch irgendwie nicht so recht.

Ich erwarte nichts mehr. Solang hab ich gewartet und solang hab ich versucht irgendwie da zu sein..als Stütze..aber ohne jegliche Anerkennung zu spüren..hach~
Nun wie schonmal erwähnt..damals gings uch um Sonderbehandlung, die jene Person anwandte und mir dann sagte aus mir unbekannten Gründen "So nu werd ich keine Sonderbehandlung mehr geben" woraufhin ich meinte "Wat? Sonderbehandlung? Solchen Mist wollt ich nie." Sein dämliches Gequackel von wegen... wegen Rassendiskriminierung behandelt zumindest er Ausländer besser und schenkt ihnen sogar ein wenig mehr Liebe.
Ja soll er ruhig aber aus solch einem Grund will kein AUSLÄNDER besser behandelt werden. Das ist auf gleicher Ebene rassistisch. Entweder gleiche Behandlung für alle oder gar keine! Nun, mittlerweile hat er sich wohl für zweiteres bezüglich alles und jeden entschieden. Er ist in einen seltsamen Wahn verfallen was wahrscheinlich auch an seiner Midlifecrisis liegt.
Aber ach..wie gut, dass er hier von kein Wort verstehen kann und womöglich könnte es sogar sein, dass ich es irgendwann bereue das hier gesagt zu haben..aber aus der Situation heraus: Nö.
Interessant wäre auch zu sagen, dass ich nie NIE meine Versprechen mir selbst gegenüber halten kann.
Zu sagen ich red ihn nie wieder schlecht. Nun..über jemanden reden und seine Sichtweisen zu kritisieren ist für mich nicht "schlecht reden". Aber das hat er ja damals schon nicht unterscheiden können.

Und mir zu sagen ich sollte ruhiger werden..tze...der pure Kulturschock. Es tut mir ja schon fast extrem leid zu sagen, dass er wohl keine Ahnung davon hat, was für Menschen, Kulturen, Ansichten, Persönlichkeiten und co.  hinter dem japanischen Meer liegen. Natürlich möge man meinen, wer schon in L.A, Deutschland für eine Nacht und Rumänien war, wüsste es vllt besser..aber aufgrund der Sprachbarriere hat er wohl noch nich viel davon genießen können.
Aber ach all das tut nichts zur Sache. Ich habs nicht so mit Anpassungsfähigkeit..immer wieder die gleiche Leier zu erzählen macht doch keinen Spaß. Das fängt schon bei "Ganbatte!!!" und zeug an...is mir alles scheleierhaft. Konservative Menschen sind sowieso extrem anstrengend. Aber es ist wohl zu spät irgendwas zu ändern...nun sei es drum.
Und dennoch gibt es zu viele Momente auch noch heute wo ich mich frage ob es zufall ist oder absicht. Aber sollte er eines Tages vor meiner Tür stehen und mir eine reinhauen, sag ich hier bescheid. :D!


Dienstag, 12. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-12 / 21:30:58

2012-06-12 / 21:30:58
Title: Soccer was great!

No~ I got unexpectedly excited !!!
Personally, when it is about soccer  I am a UCHIDA-Suppoter
and because of that I felt really sad seeing this facial expression of him after he was fouled which gave him a PK.
The reason why I like him is, although he was kicked with an elbow and fell on the ground he didn't show at all in his face that he was in pain but instead he stood up again as if nothing had happened.
That will to win and that length of his feet which are rare for soccer players, and his manly spots
and the fact that he's wearing jerseys in his freetime, is good isnt it.
I can also understand why he's popular with girls!
Speaking of that, speaking about that BASS person yesterday, who I was talking about?
Without doubt? Was that Uchida?
Was it the same Ucchi who was called Ucchi (Wuchy) by everyone....
But for bassists, BASS Ucchi's (Wuchy) short fingers are also rare,
or rather I should say he has small hands.
Well, but no matter what kind of Wuchy I am talking about, he's a man with power.
The sumo-ring will change now but you know, I am also glad that I am not in the same generation and in a different genre as Saijou Hideki-san and Matsui Hideki-san.
As for musicians it's Kaji Hideki, eeh! Bam!
Right now when I typed in "Kaji Hideki" (カジヒデキ) and changed it, it converted to "Kaji Hideki" (カジヒデキ) right away.
Well, I lost....
Although my "Hideki" (栄喜) is so natural.....
Hey! Who is that? Who is that person who does this pc coversion programm!!
That order is wrong!!
Idiot!! I definitely can't accept this as valid!! (nattoku ikan na)
That makes me sad! (ikan desu)
It's not an old man-gag...it's just because
I am writing lyrics now, that's the reason why it rhymes....
Kaji Hideki , that name definitely is catchy....
It's unbelievable but could I also call myself "Mojihideki"? (laughs)
No, that sounds too ugly.
No, I am wrong. it's not the right time to be worried about such a thing right now. 

Bye!

original entry 

~~~~
Hideki thinks it's absoluttely funny to start calling the soccer player UCHIDA Ucchi as well.
I mean indeed when I Mean WUCHY I write WUCHY..but Hideki always writes Wuchy as Ucchi in Katakana...so now I had a hard tim to differentiate them XD

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-12 / 10:00:01

2012-06-12 / 10:00:01
Title: 3 BASS recordings are finished.

Yesterday. wuchy played 3 songs of my album for me which I am producing right now.
Typically of Wuchy, the first thing he said regarding the new BASS line he thought of by mself was "Hideki-san, isn't that phrase good!" and then he would sometimes give me this self-satisfied look. (laughs)
I don't know how Wuchy thinks about it but
I am pretty grateful that he's all serious about music.

[IMAGE]


Next topic is about the presale for the SHIBUYA BOXX concert on 23. September.
I am going to do a kind of lottery, because obviously there are more people who want to go than there is space for them in the hall.
That random normal sale for the tickets will start on 7th July at 10am.
Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu.

Thank you
Going to give my best at the Recording.
Hideki
Bye!

original entry

Montag, 11. Juni 2012

Der Moment wenn man anfängt sich selbst auf die Nerven zu gehen.

Und das nur weil man das Gefühl hat man denkt immer wieder das gleiche.
Ja man ist schon von sich selbst genervt weil man immer wieder die gleiche Grütze denkt, ohne eine Entscheidung treffen zu können.
Man jammert lieber rum, denkt pessimistisch hoch 3...
Sachen wie...
"Es wird nie wieder so sein wie es mal war."
"Es wird nichts ändern."
"Eigentlich kann ich auch aufhören."

Aber es fehlt das entscheidene Etwas, was mich von meiner Entscheidung abhält. Etwas, womit ich leben kann. Im Grunde eine klare Antwort.
Es geht hier nicht um eine Wunschvorstellung. Es geht hier nicht um eine unglückliche Liebe. Nein, das alles hat damit gar nichts zu tun selbst wenn es manchmal so rüberkommt.
Es ist einfach nur ein quälender Gedanke.

Man kann nicht als Fan einfach wieder quasi von 0 anfangen, so tun als sei nichts gewesen.
Nehmen wir an, man ist ein Fan von einer Band, die gar nicht weiß, dass man existiert. Es ist einem egal ob sie es wissen oder nicht. Wenn sie es zufällig mitkriegen dass man existiert, isses cool..sicher...aber kein Grund irgendwas am Fandasein zu ändern.
Etwas völlig anderes ist es jedoch wenn man zu einer Person von der man Fan ist...und womöglich ist es noch eine Person, die du am allerliebsten in der ganzen Branche magst....egal..wenn man zu so einer Person eine Art persönliche Beziehung aufbaut..über Wochen oder Monate hinweg Tag für Tag gegenseitig Mails schreibt...
und dann plöötzlich....zoooooom bricht der Kontakt aus irgendwelchen nichtigen Gründen ab.

Passiert. Ja. Passiert auch oft mal online wenn man einfach ne nette Person kennenlernt und plötzlich ignoriert sie einen bzw gibt schwammige Argumente warum man nu nicht mehr miteinander chatten sollte.
Da fragt man sich doch..was zur Hölle ist da los...bzw wie kann das sein..was hat man so falsch gemacht.
Und irgendwie...naja..fragt man sich ob man der Person überhaupt noch irgendwas bedeutet.
Man könnte meinen von der Reaktion allein: "Nö!"
Aber wenn es nie ausdrücklich gesagt wurde, kann man damit auch nicht leben. Zumindest ich kann es nicht...aber vllt muss ich ja einfach damit leben?
Vielleicht ist es einfach so wie es ist. Vielleicht sollte ich micch einfach damit abfinden?
Aber leichter gesagt als getan. Aber vielleicht...vielleicht geschieht ja noch ein Wunder. Ich brauche nur ein Zeichen..ein Zeichen um entscheiden zu können wie es weitergeht.....

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-11 / 08:02:47

 2012-06-11/ 08:02:47
Title: Morning.

Today is the BASS recording for the album.
Wuchy will play it for me.
It will start after lunch. Until then I have to sort the data of the recording and put it onto the harddisc....
I guess I will have a break from my Dracula life for a while...
Ok! I am going to do it firmly!
Bye!

original entry

Sonntag, 10. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-10 / 23:34:25

2012-06-10 / 23:34:25
Title: The video resolution is low....

The video resolution has become low but I have uploaded it.
http://youtu.be/f1D2R-hLK94

original entry

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-10 / 04:57:22

2012-06-10 04:57:22
Title: Uploaded the video

Uploaded the livestation video to http://youtu.be/K0b_qRSEJRI
Please watch it as soon as possible, because I won't have it uploaded for a long time.

original entry

Hideki writes too many blog entries and I obviously

write too less of them by myself in my own blog.
It's because I am so busy translating his entries in my blog that I don't have any time to write my own entries.  :(
On the other hand I don't have much to write about because I usually write about everything important what's on my mind on twitter..although I know it will be vanished soon when it's there.

But aaaaah today is already Sunday, huh? And...my niece is still sitting in my room although it's already 2.35am!!! Fuck go to bed!
And fuck I have school on monday..means getting up early...baeeh..do not want.

Oh I fund a cute Hideki pic in Kobayashi Azusa's blog...from 7th June!
Cutey!!! although he's an old man you can't really see it I think..however with dark hair he looks kind of...well obviously superficial but I think he looks a lot better like THIS. (the facial expression looks kinda strange though..XD And it feels like he lost a lot of weight again..but that might only be that weird expression and angle..who knows)

Actually in the past I would have posted the photo right away...but I have become careful....just because I think...well ...I don't know..I don't want to do stuff anymore which he could consider wrong...I don't want to make him mad anymore..So I won't "steal" it and post it into my blog.

Um um..I am tired. Nothing new yeah..
you know today or rather yesterday..I woke up at 2pm and was fucking surprised..how could that happen? I have no idea..it just happened...o_o

At any rate I think I need to write more entries about myself although only a few people read them...
Yeah somehow...I noticed I have those weird evening/night depressions...when I wake up it's not like I feel depressed at all but in the evening or rather late night..I start to get frustrated about certain stuff.
It's like a moodswing...you feel like all in love with something all day long..till the evening..then you suddenly change yourself and start to hate it...it's like having a uncontrollable grudge on someone....

But there are several things in daily life which change....eg..the first coffee in the morning is the most delicious one...my last one in the evening or night is rather..hmm boring and simply not so delicious. Weird things in life...

Oh I watched soccer this evening with my nieces. Luckily Germany won against Portugal..although in the end it was a quite cruel game which made you think it's only a question of time till Portugal will finally make a goal. They seemed motivated to make it in the end...while Germany had a hard time trying to defend their goal. Well I can only hope Germany will play better on Wednesday against the Netherlands.

Nothing more to say now. Well in fact I only talked about random good for nothing stuff, I guess? XD

Samstag, 9. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-09 / 20:06:30

2012-06-09 / 20:06:30
Title: Had enough of sleep!

THE LIVE is over but I rested enough!
Now, I am going to change my feelings all towards the album recording and
I want to give my best.

Also I recorded the promised video,
which I will upload somewhere soon.

Also,  the support members for the live on 23th September (Sunday) for which you can already book
tickets, will be different this time.
That's why I will announce them now again.
It will be Joe-san, K-A-Zkun, Ninji-san and Charlie-san.
Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu.
LIVE details are covered below.

------------------------------------------------------------------------
*Date
2012/9/23 (Sunday)

*Location
*OPEN / START
17:00 / 18:00

*Tickets
4,500 yen (1 drink = 500yen extra)

Ticket presale has already started! (until 6/18(Monday) 18:00)
------------------------------------------------------------------------

Thanks for telling me your impressions about the live.
Kitajima Ima Burou Sensei already went back home but, the feeling that I failed is still there (laughs)
Because it only made K-A-Zkun laughing wildly, it's okay?
Without getting discouraged, I am going to start passionately with my work now.

Bye!

original entry

Dinge, die ich wahrscheinlich nie hätte sagen sollen..

Dinge wie
....dass ich nicht mehr die Sprache sprechen werde...
....dass es das letzte mal ist, dass ich schreibe...
....dir zu sagen, dass du anscheinend alles dafür tust, so dass ich dich nich mehr mag...
....dass du mir egal bist

Jedes Wort war gelogen...
natürlich...
man belügt sich selbst ja gern nur weil man die Hoffnung hat, dass man sich dadurch besser fühlt...
...dass man davon loskommt.

Doch letzten Endes ist man wieder genau da wo man am Anfang stand...
Ein Haufen voller Scherben, von dem man glaubt ihn nicht alleine zusammenfegen zu müssen...
man glaubt womöglich sogar, dass jemand kommen würde um all die Scherben wieder zu vereinen..sie zu dem zu machen, was sie vorher waren...

Aber es kommt niemand...

Wann wird man sich aufraffen den Besen in die Hand zu nehmen und alles wegzukehren?
Es sind nur Scherben..nichts als Scherben...selbst wenn in jeder dieser Scherbe eine Erinnerung steckt...

Es is wahr ja...nun nach mehr als einem halben Jahr ist die Erinnerung so verblasst, dass ich glaube es wäre nie passiert. Ich kann es glauben, denn es gibt keinen lebhaften Beweis dafür. Nun...materiell gesehen...gibt es Dinge...wie den grünen Umschlag, der noch immer in meinem Regal liegt...wie sollte ich ihn wegschmeißen können...es ist nur ein Umschlag..ein Umschlag...selbst wenn ich mir das sage...es ist einfach kein normaler Umschlag....selbst wenn ich nichts mehr davon weiß..nicht mehr das Bild vor Augen hab wie dieser Umschlag in meinen Besitz gekommen ist...

Aber irgendwie hat jeder von uns etwas, wovon er sich nicht trennen mag....

Die Hoffnung irgendwann noch einmal einen Augenblick zu teilen, ist nach wie vor da.
Vielleicht sollte ich mich auf diesen Moment freuen...aber solange dieser Moment ungewiss ist, kann man sich darauf nicht freuen?

Nun C'est la vie.

全てが 二度と戻らないのは
分かってるけど だけどせめて
さよならくらい言わせてくれよ
寂しすぎるよ



Freitag, 8. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-08 / 02:58:58

2012-06-08 / 02:58:58
Title: Thank you for today

As expected, it was passionate!
Just came back from the aftershow.
I was moved at the end of the LIVE at the time of "Koe ni..."
Thank you always.
I am glad to be a musician.

Now, the announcement of the tickets presale for the SHIBUYA BOXX LIVE on 23th September (Sunday)

【Time limit】6/9(Saturday) 12:00 ~ 6/18 (Monday) 18:00
【URL】http://pia.jp/sp/hideki-of/
(※PC and MOBILE)

Today I am going to fall asleep right away.
Good night.

Bye!

original entry

Mittwoch, 6. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-06 23:05:30

2012-06-06 / 23:05:30
Title: Morning!

Alright! Tomorrow I will do it!
Tomorrow, please don't be late, everyone.
If you come too late to the START, you will miss out to hear 

a very heavy cryable ballad!!
Meguro is the starting point.
That's why I will also be cool and dandy there.
All of you girls should become crazy!!
All of the boys...well what about them? They will probably hate it a little bit maybe...

Last time I might have been nervous because it's been a while since I had a live,
that's why I forgot to record a video, but tomorrow I will definitely do it!!
But, I can't upload it here right?
There are also people who can't see mixi right?
Ah that! There is youtube!!
Don't be late tomorrow....

Bye! See you later!!



original entry

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-06 / 17:54:58

2012-06-06 / 17:54:58
Title: Tomorrow is the extra live.

Just finished producing (laughs)
Now Imamura Hideki is waiting to surpass the wall of one genre tomorrow.
Personally I am looking forward to it even more now.
Now I am going to bed so that I will be fit
for tomorrow coz it will for sure become a live with an oxygen deficit.
Already!
Good night.

original entry

~~~~~~

Sorry for not being uptodate lately. Had stessful exhausting weeks full with work.
But Now I have some days off the next days so I hope I can finish all left updates.

Sonntag, 3. Juni 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-03 / 16:59:56

2012-06-03 / 16:59:56
Title: Went to see a play
I went to see Amon Miyamoto's version of "Salome"
It was the first the time that I saw a play by Amon Miyamoto.
Was pretty enjoyable, unexpectely awesome

or perhaps I should say grotesque.
Yeah I learnt something.
Yes.
Changing the topic. Everyone perfectely remembered 

the title "Cleopatra ni dakarete" (Hugged by Cleopatra).
Yes Yes...

That has a big impact on me....
Honestly, inside of me it's a feeling which pretty much came down to me

but it has no connection to the lyrics at all (laughs)
Wahahahaa
I like it but I think the surroundings will rather say
something like "Let me go! / Glve me a break!" ...
It's interesting that the sound in Uguisudani is totally different from ROCK. [1]
Also I didn't expect that I am able to say such stuff in a song at all,
so it has become kinda odd.
There were also a lot of people who came to see the live from far away.
Thank you.
Bye

orginal entry

[1] Uguisudani is the place / location of the Kinema Club..or rather I should say that the train station of Uguisudani is pretty close to the Clubhouse.. that's why hideki probably also called it Uguisudani? well well..there are things in this world I don't get anyway XD

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-06-03 / 01:02:05

2012-06-03 / 01:02:05
Title: Thanks for today

It's annoying that I couldn't reach the odd spaces
because my microphone cable was too short.  (laughs)
I was pretty moved when I heard
everyone's singing of Koe ni... beyond my in-ear monitor.
Thank you.
Will try to work even harder.
Bye

original entry


Freitag, 1. Juni 2012

[未来(HIDEKI)] The secret (未来盤 Disc 1 #2)


The secret

We're turnin' on to something
New generation. new generation
この心を抜け出して
New destination
Just be what you wanna be cause there ain't any better way
New medication. New generation
We're turnin' on to something

You gotta cry out  意見正して
You gotta cry out  意見噛まして
意気がってるからじゃ無いぜ感じてるままで
Don't gotta die out 我を正して
Don't gotta die out 我を噛まして
Everybody's beautiful day Ohh

Love主義  ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
Love主義  ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
永久 Golden emotion in motion

New fascination, new fascination
もぬけの殻抜け出して New destination
Just do what you gotta do cause there ain't any better way
New application, new fascination
We're turnin' on to something

You gotta cry out もっと正して
You gotta cry out もっと噛まして
何の為に生きているのか 感じたいだけで
Don't gotta die out 終わりを正して
Don't gotta die out 今を正して
Everybody's beautiful day Ohh

Love主義 ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
Love主義 ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
A級 Golden emotion in motion

Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
Love主義  ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
永久 Golden emotion in motion

Secret 
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
A級 Golden emotion in motion


[未来(HIDEKI)] Shiny day (未来盤 Disc 1 #4)

Shiny day

Why don't I feel the need to cry?
The big beyond the answer why

何一つ無くて 微笑んでるだけで
何一つ無くて 覚えてるだけで
求めてる

Shiny day shine away  愛が溢れ出す
Shiny day shine away  涙、乾き出す
Shiny day....

怒れてる中 遺憾そらして 以上と的確にブチのめすなら
私感よ蓄え 怒りを超えろ 何もかも我(おまえ)の胸で熱く見ろ

何一つ無くて 微笑んでるだけで
何一つ無くて 覚えてるだけで
求めてる

Shiny day shine away  愛が溢れ出す
Shiny day shine away  涙、乾き出す
Shiny day shine away  君が遠くなる
Shiny day shine away  君が欲しくなる
Shine day....

Underneath a big blue sky
Yes, I will find you there Ohh~
I got no need to lie
Just gotta live my life
I'm gonna cum inside Ohh~

何一つ無くて 微笑んでるだけで 何一つ無くて (This feeling in my heart)
何ひとつ無くて 答えも無くて
クスネで砕け

Shiny day shine away  愛が溢れ出す
Shiny day shine away  涙、乾き出す
Shiny day shine away  君が遠くなる
Shiny day shine away  君が欲しくなる
Shiny day shine away  Shiny day目の前の憂鬱を
Shiny day shine away  粉々にノスのさ

[未来(HIDEKI)] Rain Knell (未来盤 Disc 1 #9)


Rain Knell

ほら 外は今時 目に映る物だけを信じれるから解らない
繰り返すだけの時間に愛されて 呼吸はため息で消された
すれ違うことも曖昧で 傷つくだけじゃない様に…

Kiss me once tonight (your broken heart)
Kiss the past goodbye 俺はただ…

Rain 君が包むから 俺は空に問う やがて君に問う
Rain Knell Rain ねぇ…

遠くどこまでも続くの? 歩き疲れた夜も君の眼差しが
同じこの道を歩かせている

Just rain, I don’t mind. Shine, the weather's just fine.

Rain 君が痛いから 俺は空に問う やがて君に問う Rain Knell
Rain 君が痛いから 俺は空に問う やがて君に問う Rain ねぇ

幾千もの涙の数だけ咲いているはずの 花は何処へ消えたの?
僅かだけど胸に咲いたこの霞草を 海の向こうへ君に届けよう

Rain 君が包むなら 俺は空に問う やがて君へと…
Rain Knell Rain ねぇ Rain ねぇ…

[未来(HIDEKI) ] 声に... (未来盤 Disc 1 #3)

声に...

I’M NOT HERE TO MAKE YOU MINE
I JUST WANNA SEE YOU SHINE
TAKE ME I’M YOUR COWBOY
TAKE ME TO YOUR TOWN
DUMB AS HEAVEN
HANGIN’ OUT JUST TO BE YOUR CLOWN

DON’T MAKE ME SKATE ON MY HEART, CHILD
CAUSE YOU KNOW I MIGHT BREAK IT
DON’T MAKE ME HOT ON YOUR LOVE, CHILD
CAUSE YOU KNOW I CAN’T FAKE IT’
BUT IF YOU’RE FEELIN’ DOWN IN NEED
YOU CAN ALWAYS COME TO ME
I’LL BE YOUR HANDY PHONE, NO HESITATION
I’LL BE THERE FOR YOU

TAKE ME I’M YOUR COWBOY
TAKE ME TO YOUR TOWN
DUMB AS HEAVEN
HANGIN’ OUT JUST TO BE YOUR CLOWN

声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる

DON’T THINK’ BOUT GIVEN IT UP, CHILD
CAUSE YOU KNOW I CAN’T DO IT
DON’T MAKE ME OBIWAN LOVE CHAI
I’M ALREADY TOO STUPID

BUT IF YOU NEED A MIND TO READ
(I JUST WANNA SEE YOU LAUGH AND SHINE)
YOU CAN ALWAYS BOTHER ME
I’LL BE YOUR RODEO IMAGINATION
I’LL BE THERE FOR YOU

TAKE ME I’M YOUR COWBOY
TAKE ME TO YOUR TOWN
DUMB AS HEAVEN
HANGIN’ OUT JUST TO BE YOUR CLOWN

声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる

声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる