Ist es nich seltsam wie eine Begegnung ein größeres Trauma auslöst als ein Autounfall?
An den Autounfall erinnere ich mich nicht mehr wirklich bzw. er interessiert mich auch nicht mehr.
Stattdessen dieses psychische Trauma, welches mich in Japan ereilte!
Zugegeben auch das wird von Tag zu Tag blasser....die Intensität des Visuellen verblasst, was auch nicht verwunderlich ist und doch...auf der einen Seite ist es gut so und auf der anderen Seite macht es mich traurig. Dass ich bei dem Konzert war, das hab ich bis heute noch nicht realisiert..vielleicht erst wenn die DVD endlich mal rauskommt..oder vielleicht auch nie. Wer weiß das schon.
Letztendlich drehen sich meine Gedanken aber immer im Kreis. Es gibt so viele "Warum?"s in meinem Kopf, die ich nicht beantworten kann.
Was ich weiß ist, hätte ich gewusst, dass dies ein Abschied für immer ist, hätte ich ihn wahrscheinlich ausgedehnt. Was bleibt..was uns bleibt sind....ich hab das Lied schon ewig nicht mehr gehört..jahre..es stieg mir nur plötzlich zu Kopf...
Alles, was zu Ende ist, kann auch Anfang sein.
Man sollte nicht an alten Zeiten kleben.
Doch ich bin kein Ignorant, der zu schnell vergisst.
Das, was einmal war, ist auch mein Leben ♫
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Runaway
hit a miss or break your back
if you wanna get the monster media
gotta roll with the night show
pick up and get go with the night show
anyway, unaware, the pig gets fat
you can get a bit of this, a bit of that
better roll with the night show
don't you wait another minute
hey, get a load of this
color me vision, who am i? ism
all we see isn't, color me wisdom
i wanna space where i can breathe
i see so much that i can't see
got everything yet i still need
and think so much that i can't think
can't hear, can't talk, can't get away
shut down
do me the favor
got away, got away with what they said
the king is gone, but is he dead?
wanna roll with the light show
get up and get go with the light show
anyway, unaware, don't look so sad
it may seem dull, but ain't that bad
better roll with the light show
somebody gotta open up that door
color me vision, who am i? ism
all we see isn't, color me wisdom
i wanna space where i can breathe
i see so much that i can't see
got everything yet i still need
and think so much that i can't think
i wanna space where i can breathe
i see so much that i can't see
got everything yet still i need
and think so much that i can't think
it's got it's reach inside of me
i'm feeling something here so deep inside
got everything yet still i need
and think so much that i can't think
can't hear, can't talk, can't anything
shut down
do me the favor
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INSPIRED
something i can't explain at all a trip to source and that's enough it comes to me, i open up no words, no thought, so simple
don't even need to be don't need to wonder why who needs to see to be opened up and so alive you find that nobody's home and yet you're not alone don't even know yourself you're going higher
sometimes it makes no sense at all something so new and faraway i think i'm down when i'm still up no hate, no fear, so simple
get so going out of your head that you don't care where you're at (inspired) gets so that you don't even know and could never begin to ask (inspired) got you spinning out of control and you got no sense of time you don't need reason, any reason higher
get so going out of your mind that you don't care where you are (inspired) gets so that you never could know if you really are near or far (inspired) don't think 'bout loosing control you know, you've never been so alive you don't need reason, any reason get so going out of your head that you don't care where you're at (inspired) gets so that you don't even know and could never begin to ask (inspired) got you spinning out of control and you got no sense of time you don't need reason, any reason higher
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Into power
you can't get enough
you say you're addicted
what it is
you never give a shit, unsentimental mocking sadness
you can't give it up, you don't wanna miss it
what it is
you go about the biz
and every bit of burning blackness, ohh
you don't care, you don't feel
thought all you needed was a better theory
thought all you needed was a bit of tenure
you pretend, so it ain't real
thought all you needed was a good attorney
thought all you needed was to be misunderstood
you can't get enough and so you get loaded
what it is,
you really wanna kiss the fundamental virgin darkness
you can't get it up and so you exploded
there it is, you're doin' it again
you been a little redneck bad ass, ohh
you don't care, you don't feel
thought all you needed was the military
thought all you needed was a bit of madness
you pretend, so it ain't real
thought all you needed was a different daddy
but all you needed was a better standard fare
you don't care, you don't feel
doing dog eat dog, cryin' poor is me
you pretend, so it ain't real
thought all you needed was a good attorney
thought all you needed was a bit of tenure
you don't care, you don't feel
thought all you needed was the military
thought all you needed was a bit of madness
you pretend, so it ain't real
thought all you needed was a different daddy
but all you needed was a better standard fare
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
yeah!!!!!
ride
what’s up?
it’s time to ride
ohhh, i just wanna ride! ride
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
yeah!!!!!
常に一切無い 後悔は無い
豪快に胸の鳴る方へ jump
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
ride, ride,ride, ride, ride an angel
yeah!!!!!
情無き夜に lost my head
you need get real
It’s back to square one
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Dark and Light
don’t get it, so don’t say you are sorry
don’t bother, bye bye, i know the story
you got a mighty, mighty,
mighty, mighty, mighty,
mighty fine deal going with mister
time, darkness and the light
you know it gets too dark
and we can't find the way home
too tight and we can't seem to let go
too dark and we can't find the way home
too black and i can't find the way
i gotta know me
no one can show me
too bright and i can't see where i go
too heavy and i'm gonna let go
too bright and i can't see where i go
too right and i can't find the way
i gotta show me
nobody owes me
time, darkness and the light
too much and i break it down
not enough and i'm underground
too lucky, i'm comin' down
comin' down, got me comin' down
no reason, no right or wrong
only shadows to balance on
we go where we're gonna be
you'll remember that i told you
someday
don't do it, no don't say you are sorry
don't bother, bye bye, i heard the story
you got a shiny, shiny, shiny, shiny, shiny,
shiny fine deal going with mister
time, darkness and the light
too much and i break it down
not enough and i'm underground
too lucky, i'm comin' down
comin' down, got me comin' down
no reason, no right or wrong
only shadows to balance on
we go where we're gonna be
you'll remember that i told you
someday
too much and i break it down
not enough and i'm underground
too lucky, i'm comin' down
comin' down, got me comin' down
no reason, no right or wrong
only shadows to balance on
we go where we're gonna be
you'll remember everything
you wanted to come along
and then you hand me a smokin' gun
don't say you didn't
no reason, no right or wrong
gimme a minute
dark and the light goes on
and then i'm in it
cool and i won't hold tight
another minute
but everything has a price
so don't forget it
we go where we're gonna be
you'll remember that i told you
someday
Somehow it's quite difficult to translate from German to Japanese. I have no idea why..but somehow it's hard to deliver the same feelings. I wonder if this translation makes any sense anyway XD
I just found this song on youtube by accident when I was browsing some old Ärzte videos and right in the moment when that line "Es heißt, dass jedes Ende auch ein Anfang wär" appeared I was all done for it. I already had some thoughts about it before the line appeared but that line only remembered me of the same words Hideki said many years ago at SIAM SHADE's final live..that 『終わりは始まり』というsentence. It's the same but the supplement of the words "Doch warum tut es so weh und warum ist es so schwer?" is probably the same thing they felt back then...they just didn't say it.
But this song also made me realize that I am going back and forth.without any proper decision. But maybe I have made my decision but with this decision I always go back I am running in a field of aroused penises circle.... o_ô Well maybe more time needs to pass.
Anyway I also think for some reason it's an ingenious song..hmm
Nichts In Der Welt
Es ist vorbei und der Himmel ist schwarz, weil die Sonne hier nie wieder scheint
Es ist vorbei, doch ich hoffe, dass das, was uns trennte, uns wieder vereint
もう終わりだ 空が黒い理由は ここで太陽がもはや輝いてないから
もう終わりだけど 二人分かってるものがいつかまた二人を合わせる希望がある
Es ist vorbei und nichts in der Welt wird es je wieder gutmachen können
Es ist vorbei - wenn ich könnte, dann würde ich vor meinem Leben wegrennen
もう終わりだ この世でそれを埋め合わせられるものが無い
もう終わりだ もしできたら俺の人生から逃げるけど
Würd' die Augen verschließen und ich würde probieren
meine Gefühle einfach zu ignorieren
Ich will so kalt sein, dass alle erfrieren
Will mich nie mehr verlieben, um nie mehr zu verliern
もしできたら 目を閉じて
自分の感情を無視してみる
みんなが凍え死ぬほど 冷たくなりたい
もはや負けないように もはや恋に落ちたくない
Es dauert noch, bis ich begreife, was das heißt:
Es ist vorbei, ich weiß nicht, warum - sag mir, was hab ich falsch gemacht
Es ist vorbei, du hast mein Herz zerfetzt und dir gar nichts dabei gedacht
その言葉が何なのか分かってくるまでは、まだ時間がかかる
もう終わりだ 理由がわからないから 何を間違えたか教えてくれ
もう終わりだ 思いやりのない君は俺の心を引き裂いた
Du bist so grausam - darum liebe ich dich
Obwohl ich doch weiß, dass du nicht gut bist für mich
Meine Gefühle sind an und für sich
lächerlich einfach - und einfach lächerlich
君はとてもひどい - だから君を愛してるよ
君の存在が俺に悪いのは知ってるのに
俺の感情は一体バカにシンプルだし、シンプルにバカだ
Weil jeder Gedanke nur um das Eine kreist:
Es ist vorbei, vorbei, vorbei! (x4)
その一つのことしか考えられない
もう終わり、終わり、終わり!
Es ist vorbei, doch idiotischerweise will ich immer noch bei dir sein
Es ist vorbei - und ich will nicht begreifen: Jeder Mensch ist für immer allein
もう終わりだけど 馬鹿ながらに 今でも君のそばにいたい
もう終わりだけど 人間が永遠にそれぞれ一人でいるのは分かりたくない
Liebe ist nur ein Traum, eine Idee und nicht mehr
Tief im Inneren bleibt jeder einsam und leer
Es heißt, dass jedes Ende auch ein Anfang wär
Doch warum tut es so weh und warum ist es so schwer?
愛は夢だけで アイデアばっかり
心の奥底では 誰も孤独とむなしさのままでいる
終わりも始まりだと言っても
なんでそんなに痛いかな?
なんでそんなに難しいかな?
Ich lasse dich gehen, auch wenn es mich zerreißt
壊れても 君を行かせてあげよう
Es ist vorbei, vorbei, vorbei! (x4)
もう終わり、終わり、終わり!
Es ist vorbei und nichts in der Welt wird es je wieder gutmachen können