Freitag, 1. Juni 2012

[未来(HIDEKI)] The secret (未来盤 Disc 1 #2)


The secret

We're turnin' on to something
New generation. new generation
この心を抜け出して
New destination
Just be what you wanna be cause there ain't any better way
New medication. New generation
We're turnin' on to something

You gotta cry out  意見正して
You gotta cry out  意見噛まして
意気がってるからじゃ無いぜ感じてるままで
Don't gotta die out 我を正して
Don't gotta die out 我を噛まして
Everybody's beautiful day Ohh

Love主義  ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
Love主義  ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
永久 Golden emotion in motion

New fascination, new fascination
もぬけの殻抜け出して New destination
Just do what you gotta do cause there ain't any better way
New application, new fascination
We're turnin' on to something

You gotta cry out もっと正して
You gotta cry out もっと噛まして
何の為に生きているのか 感じたいだけで
Don't gotta die out 終わりを正して
Don't gotta die out 今を正して
Everybody's beautiful day Ohh

Love主義 ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
Love主義 ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
A級 Golden emotion in motion

Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
Love主義  ガンガン主義
Secret 何でもチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビン無いで
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
永久 Golden emotion in motion

Secret 
愛は上手にチビン無いで つかの間の感情にビビンないで
A級 Golden emotion in motion


[未来(HIDEKI)] Shiny day (未来盤 Disc 1 #4)

Shiny day

Why don't I feel the need to cry?
The big beyond the answer why

何一つ無くて 微笑んでるだけで
何一つ無くて 覚えてるだけで
求めてる

Shiny day shine away  愛が溢れ出す
Shiny day shine away  涙、乾き出す
Shiny day....

怒れてる中 遺憾そらして 以上と的確にブチのめすなら
私感よ蓄え 怒りを超えろ 何もかも我(おまえ)の胸で熱く見ろ

何一つ無くて 微笑んでるだけで
何一つ無くて 覚えてるだけで
求めてる

Shiny day shine away  愛が溢れ出す
Shiny day shine away  涙、乾き出す
Shiny day shine away  君が遠くなる
Shiny day shine away  君が欲しくなる
Shine day....

Underneath a big blue sky
Yes, I will find you there Ohh~
I got no need to lie
Just gotta live my life
I'm gonna cum inside Ohh~

何一つ無くて 微笑んでるだけで 何一つ無くて (This feeling in my heart)
何ひとつ無くて 答えも無くて
クスネで砕け

Shiny day shine away  愛が溢れ出す
Shiny day shine away  涙、乾き出す
Shiny day shine away  君が遠くなる
Shiny day shine away  君が欲しくなる
Shiny day shine away  Shiny day目の前の憂鬱を
Shiny day shine away  粉々にノスのさ

[未来(HIDEKI)] Rain Knell (未来盤 Disc 1 #9)


Rain Knell

ほら 外は今時 目に映る物だけを信じれるから解らない
繰り返すだけの時間に愛されて 呼吸はため息で消された
すれ違うことも曖昧で 傷つくだけじゃない様に…

Kiss me once tonight (your broken heart)
Kiss the past goodbye 俺はただ…

Rain 君が包むから 俺は空に問う やがて君に問う
Rain Knell Rain ねぇ…

遠くどこまでも続くの? 歩き疲れた夜も君の眼差しが
同じこの道を歩かせている

Just rain, I don’t mind. Shine, the weather's just fine.

Rain 君が痛いから 俺は空に問う やがて君に問う Rain Knell
Rain 君が痛いから 俺は空に問う やがて君に問う Rain ねぇ

幾千もの涙の数だけ咲いているはずの 花は何処へ消えたの?
僅かだけど胸に咲いたこの霞草を 海の向こうへ君に届けよう

Rain 君が包むなら 俺は空に問う やがて君へと…
Rain Knell Rain ねぇ Rain ねぇ…

[未来(HIDEKI) ] 声に... (未来盤 Disc 1 #3)

声に...

I’M NOT HERE TO MAKE YOU MINE
I JUST WANNA SEE YOU SHINE
TAKE ME I’M YOUR COWBOY
TAKE ME TO YOUR TOWN
DUMB AS HEAVEN
HANGIN’ OUT JUST TO BE YOUR CLOWN

DON’T MAKE ME SKATE ON MY HEART, CHILD
CAUSE YOU KNOW I MIGHT BREAK IT
DON’T MAKE ME HOT ON YOUR LOVE, CHILD
CAUSE YOU KNOW I CAN’T FAKE IT’
BUT IF YOU’RE FEELIN’ DOWN IN NEED
YOU CAN ALWAYS COME TO ME
I’LL BE YOUR HANDY PHONE, NO HESITATION
I’LL BE THERE FOR YOU

TAKE ME I’M YOUR COWBOY
TAKE ME TO YOUR TOWN
DUMB AS HEAVEN
HANGIN’ OUT JUST TO BE YOUR CLOWN

声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる

DON’T THINK’ BOUT GIVEN IT UP, CHILD
CAUSE YOU KNOW I CAN’T DO IT
DON’T MAKE ME OBIWAN LOVE CHAI
I’M ALREADY TOO STUPID

BUT IF YOU NEED A MIND TO READ
(I JUST WANNA SEE YOU LAUGH AND SHINE)
YOU CAN ALWAYS BOTHER ME
I’LL BE YOUR RODEO IMAGINATION
I’LL BE THERE FOR YOU

TAKE ME I’M YOUR COWBOY
TAKE ME TO YOUR TOWN
DUMB AS HEAVEN
HANGIN’ OUT JUST TO BE YOUR CLOWN

声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる

声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる
声に声に出来ない思い 君を深く愛してる

Dienstag, 29. Mai 2012

feeling tired and fat...lol :(

Story of my life I guess, because it's rare that I am not tired after a day of work.
Well there are such days...but today it's probably because I couldn't sleep at all last night.
Well that's probably also not true because the time was passing by quickly at night but at any rate that kind of sleep wasn't restorative at all.
Regarding work I have nothing to say. I only realized that the work at hospital can also be enjoyable..but it can also be saddening.
For example, today I was all day long mainly looking after a mentally and kinda physically handicapped person..well it's rather mentally I think..that's why physically movement also looks kind of different.
What saddens me is the fact that the person is not that much older than me. Well 30 I think? Whatever..since I don't know if that's a handicap he was born with or if it's a handicap which was caused by an accident, makes it tough. I mean, if you are born with a handicap it's normal for you but imagining that yourself could become like this...well I don't want to think like that but...well what I can say is..at least today I got rid of another fear in my life.
Told it before on twitter some weeks ago, but I am actually scared of mentally handicapped people because they do things different than the majority of humans do, which of course doesn't make them unnormal...because I simply think it's impossible to define what's normal and what's not.
Well basically from anatomical point of view you could of course say easily such people are not normal, but then again you could say anyone, who has a harmless or harmful disease in his/her life, has moments when he or she is not normal at all.

Actually you know, I am never allowed to talk about internal work related stuff, but then again I don't talk about stuff which is something special here I think because old people and handicapped people are also people you meet everyday on the streets.
So how far can you go regarding internal stuff? what are you allowed to talk about and what not?
But you know slowly I also start to like that rather different work at the hospital. It's less stressful that's for sure, but on the other hand you can't really compare it, because what I do at my usual workplace and in the hospital is kinda different. Also time feels different.
When I work in the hospital time doesn't seem to pass by at all,
but at my usual workplace time is so precious that it simply runs away.
Also in the hospital you have more time to spend it with collegues..and you always know where they are...
while at my usual workplace, after you got your task you are like a lone wolf who is fighting against the time.
Sometimes it feels like many lone wolves, fighting against each other because if you were too slow to do it, another one will do it for you, but this is rather...well it's different working.
So I got to know about different types of teamwork.

Sonntag, 27. Mai 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-05-24 / 02:48:11

2012-05-24 / 02:48:11
Title: There wasn't enough time...

Today was the rehearsal for my solo live,
tried out different stuff and I already improved some parts.
The first solo rehearsal after such a long time, was honestly speaking troublesome....
But,I was grateful that Wuchy put so much of his efforts into it.
Also I got to understand how awesome K-A-Z-kun is for real.
I thought he's a man who just does things, but in the end
he's a man who is indeed capable to do it.
That's good I think...
Since I was born, I met many different people,
but K-A-Z-kun is outstanding.
It's just that he can't eat vegetable (laughs).
I wonder why.
Well, indeed I am Dracula but I am asking myself right now If I should go to bed for today's rehearsal.
Today I will try to work persistenly.
Oh by the way, the kinema livehouse is a livehouse with an awesome athmosphere.
That's what JOE-san told me.
What should I wear?
Something to show off?
A trumpet shell? [1]
What would you prefer?

Bye!

original entry
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[1] No one actually got what he meant. lol

Samstag, 26. Mai 2012

[Hideki's ameblo] 2012-05-26 / 10:44:05

2012-05-26 / 10:44:05
Title: Refreshed. 

Finally I was able to sleep without thinking about time. Now I feel refreshed.
The extra live is also SOLD OUT. 

Thank you. 
All the profit I will gain through the extra live,
I will donate it to the live station for the musicians of tomorrow and for the development of the station.
Yoroshiku Onegaishimasu.
At any rate, what I think from the bottom of my heart, regarding everything is
"If you forgot about the entrance, there won't be an exit."
Why am I needed as a musician right now?
At times when I forgot the feeling where that entrance is and also forgot the reason why I came here this far,

I was suffering and struggling against myself because I didn't know anymore what I am,
at the time when I lost the reason why I came this far and lost the feeling for this "entrance".
If I think about it now, long time ago I also wrote in my blog "I will quit music".
The answer I have found back then and now is,
"If you forgot about the entrance, there won't be an exit"

At the time when I was busy with myself, I was thinking and telling myself "now I will spend time for myself only"
But afterwards, I heard a lot of rumours and regretted a lot.
Although it's also thanks to that person that I am doing music, 

even if that was unbearable, 
I asked myself why I didn't even try it.
Now, I am able to sing, without feeling regrets just when I live true to myself,

but there's a deeper meaning towards "not feeling regrets".
I will sing about that on my next album, so please try to get it from there.
Well, today I am going  to listen to the songs of the queen of ROCK and to JOE-san's Drums. 

Until then, of course I will exercise.
I think you won't be able to meet me anywhere except in live halls.
It's because I am trying to avoid crowds and change places quickly.
Even so sometimes I meet people  by accident and get requests to shake hands but,

apart from the SHIBUYA MAC incident, it's 100% requests by boys only.
Why?

Bye!


original entry

That douchebag called my sister's hubby.

Seriously my own life is not exciting lately either.
It's the usual thing. Less freetime, much work, a lot of travelling from A to B and B to A.
Well now I have 3 days off....chilling :D

Anyway what made me shock today is the fact that my sister's hubby is such an idiot.
You know on thursday evening my mum wrote a message to my sister and the hubby of my sister wrote it.
Actually she wrote something kind of ...harmless?
She just wrote that she wants to have breakfast with a grand-child(ren) on friday..so she invited them and my sister to come for breakfast indirectly...
but since she didn't write the name of my sister's hubby he's all pissed off. lol acting like a child.
I know well that my mum needs a lot of time to write a message on the cellphone and she also says so by herself that this wasn't her intention at all but wtf
I don't get him...
Well my mum is not to be blamed so there is no reason for her to apologize either.
Also if I am honest, it might be only me but I don't need him in my life.
I don't need people who bring trouble and an unpleasent athmosphere into my family. He's definitely not part of my family. no no..you don't need to think "But he's the husband of your sister!" I know that but I also know that my sister isn't as happy as she should be. She also has troublesome times with him..
His behaviour is also pretty annoying to her and to us, sometimes.
Immature, bitterly jealous, mean, lazy...well I am used to the fact that my sister always ends up with the wrong guys but this guy is pretty one of the worst she had so far, speaking of his attitude towards anything.
Actually, I shouldnt talk like this about him here maybe but it's also my business because in the end he's also part of my life even if I don't want to.
If he was a nice guy, I would probably be glad that he is, but as things are now, I am not.

Well people in general seem weird to me.
Just recently I realized that it's easier to see flaws and individuality regarding personality.
This makes it even harder for me to become friends or something with people.
Some of them might be nice but on the other hand they have this kind of attitude which is unlikeable and troublesome to me which doesn't make me want to get closer to them.
Well it's probably also because I feel like having the time to deal with anything which is a potential trouble-maker in my life right now.
Life is stressful enough, so I want to keep trouble and more stress regarding time as low as possible.

And oh regarding Hideki's ameblo.
I am working on it. It's just that I wasn't home and didn't have time to update the latest 5 entries...also because they are kinda larger entries.....
But I can already give keywords what they are about: Polygamy, Sumo, Solar Eclipse, Rehearsal stress..well that's mainly about it.

I am off...goodnight xD